It was a lie when they smiled and said you won't feel a thing Ch.2
~Ryan's pov~
"Ryan, you aren't seriously considering that they forgive us, do you? i mean, not that we did anything bad, you know?" Spencer asked after i explained what had just happened between my mother and I.
"I don't know what to think anymore. She really wasn't upset about seeing me. She looked as if she were about to cry tears of joy. I just don't understand why now, of all times, she decides she still loves me."
"I just don't underst-...Crap, my grammy's calling me. I gotta go. See you tomorrow at the usual place." Spencer said, hanging up on me. i grabbed a few blankets from my closet and curled up on my bed with them, looking around at my "bedroom". It just didn't feel like mine anymore. I know i didn't belong here, yet i was forced to come back. I could have stayed at school for the summer, but Spencer was coming home and i'd be alone. I sighed and closed my eyes, drifting into a cold, dead sleep.
"George. HEY GEORGE! GET UP!" Soemone said, pounding on my door. I pushed the covers off my head and stared at the clock miserably. it was on 6:30 in the morning. I knew staying in bed any longer was not an option, atleast not with the man around. The routine, even before he hated me, was to get up when he tells me to. No questions asked, just get up, otherwise there would be consequences to face. I climbed out of bed, pulled on fresh clothes, and walked downstairs.
"Your mother wants to know what you want for breakfast, kid." the man said. I looked over at her only to see sadness in her eyes, as if pleading for me to forgive her.
"Actually, i'm really craving for a McDonalds egg McMuffin." I said.
"Well, me too. I'll drive you there and we can eat together."
"No thanks, that's not neccesary. Afterall, why'd i buy a car if i never use it?" I said as i walked out the door and slammed it behind me. I didn't have time for her pathetic, "let's be a family again" act. I got in my car and drove down to the creek. Stepping out, i noticed some new adjustments. The trail was now solid dirt, no longer the rough stepped on patches of dead grass. There was a fence blocking the path that read "No Trespassing Under Penalty Of Law." I smirked. Spencer knew how to keep people away. I stepped over the sign and began walking the path that became so familiar to me when i was a little boy. The green trees covered from head to toe in moss and ivy. I knew just what to smell to make my problems disapear (i know what you're thinking-but it isn't drugs) and i know what to keep away from. More than just poison ivy and oak, but things other people wouldn't have the faintest clue about. And the smell overall was so beautiful.
"Hey Ross, you're late. What took you so long? I brought McMuffins!" Spencer yelled happily. I smiled and leaned into him, placing a gentle kiss on his soft lips.
"I thought we agreed no more kisses?" He smirked.
"Well, i missed you. Trust me, one day in that house is enough to make me feel like the most lonely guy on earth." I said.
"Wow, what would one week make you do to me?" He said, his smile growing wider. I pointed to a tree next to Spencer.
"See that tree? I would probably slam you against it and have my way with you." He started to crack up, knowing i was kidding. I was over Spencer, that much was obvious. But now i felt alone, empty. and all because of my roommates. I could have still been in love with a beautiful man, but they tore us apart, seperated us for so long that we lost everything. all the love, all the happiness, all the peaceful moments between us swept away with the wind. We talk about those times alot, both wishing we were still that close, but it will never come back.
"Ryan, are you thinking about it again?" He asked suddenly.
"No, no, of course not! Why would i be doing that?" I tried to cover up my feelings as much as possible.
"You suck at lying. Ry, i wish we could go back, too, but it's never going to happen. We should just move on, not that any other man would love me for who i am the way you did." He sighed.
"Don't say that. You are beautiful, inside and out. You'll find someone, someday. And so will i. One day." I said hopefully. But never did i expect that day to be as close as today.
Please tell me what you think, honestly. I'm still not sure if i like the way this is going, but w/e
