It was a lie when they smiled and said you won't feel a thing Ch.3
Inspiration for this chapter: "So What" by Pink. because, fuck her, thats why!! (not Pink, the other her)
~Ryan's pov~
I drove to work slowly, still thinking about the conversation Spencer and I had in the forest.
"Of course i still love you Ryan, but it will never be the same. We should just move on."
"But i can't just move on after being so in love for so long."
*Sigh* I just don't know what to do anymore. I love him so much. I thought i was over him until now. this cannot be happening to me! As if my life wasn't stressfull enough.
With a great sigh, i stepped out of my car and into the fridget cold WorldSlurp. I stepped up behind the counter where i noticed a new boy at the register. A resigned mother stood holding a small boy and complaining heavily to the new kid. He sighed, clicked a few buttons, shrugged, and began talking to her. She got frustrated and spat a string of profanities his way. he looked upset, hurt, and like he wanted to slap her, but still put on a smile and started typing again.
"Hello, can i help out in any way?" I asked, walking over to the register.
"Yes! this boy doesn't know how to do simple math! He's charging me $6.55 for a rainbow slurpy and this small pizza! Last time i got this it was only $5.55! Obviously he's trying to get a profit from me!"
"Actually, our rainbow slurpies went up a dollar in price. I'm very sorry for the inconvinience." She threww the money on the counter and stomped out in a huff. the kid leaned against the counter and put his face in his hands, so i couldn't see his face.
"Your first day?" I guessed. he moved his hands to look at me and i gasped. silently, of course.
"How did you ever guess? I'm Brendon." He said. My throat went dry, but somehow i still managed to smile.
"Ryan. Call me if you need any help out here. It gets scaring at the itime of day." I gave him a warm smile and headed around the corner to the slurpy machines, porepared to master my new rainbow slurpy making abilities.
Throughout the work day, i kept glancing at Brendon whenever i could. Although i had to stop after awhile. He started noticing. Either that or he was watching me. I found myself whisling during the day, and when our shifts were over i didn't want to leave. I said bye to him, got in my car, and drove away, thinking about this beautiful new boy that i would be working with for the ENTIRE summer. Suddenly, working at a slurpy store didn't seem so bad.
When i got home, i had to tell Spencer all about it, of course. He was my best friend, and i told him everything. I called him righ away after i had locked myself in my room and unplugged my parents end of the line.
"Hey Ry, whats up?" He asked, seeming happy to hear from me. Yeah right, i'm just kidding myself!
"Ohmygod, you will never guess who works at my job now!"
"You're right, i won't. i give up. Who?" he asked.
"His name is Brendon. He is B-E-A-Utiful. I mean, wow. Like, wow kind of beautiful. I'm amazed i was able to tell him my name after i looked into his eyes. And i'll see him every day! Isn't that awesome!" I squeeled like a little girl.
"Um, yeah. Thats...awesome, Ry. Really, that is. I'm happy for you. i have to go. bye!" He hung up before i could say bye back. I stared at the phone for a few minutes, mystified about how he reacted.
"He's probably jealous." A female voice said randomly from behind the door.
"MOM! YOU WEREN"T SUPPOSED TO BE LISTENING!" I screamed, without realizing that i had called her mom.
"Aww, sweety, you forgive me finally?" She asked, stepping into my room.
"No, i do not! that was rude! VERY RUDE! Besides, why would he be jealous? He said it himself, it would never be the same between us."
"Well, that may be so, but that doesn't mean that he can't be jealous. Sometimes a person can think they are over someone until that person is happy with someone who isn't them. Then they start to realize how much they truely love the person. Maybe thats how spencer feels about you." She said. For the first time in months, i didn't blow off a thought that she put in my head. Did Spencer still love me??
"No, i don't believe it. he's always pulling back from me. It can't be true." I said, less certain then before.
"I don't know, hunny. Why don't you sleep on it, and i'll be up bright in early to eat breakfast with you, okay??" She said hopefully. i looked into her eyes, filled with nothing but love for me, and gave in.
"Fine. I'll see you in the morning." I said. She leaned over and i let her give me a kiss on the forehead.
"Sleep good."
Sorry it was so short, it would have been way longer if my computer didn't freeze up after every line i types. Yup, still haven't gotten the computer fixed yet. Fun times.
Just to let you know whats going on with me: On wednesday i'm auditioning for an all womans choir called bel Canto at my school. I'm alittle nervous, so please wish me luck! P.S. I'll post more tomorrow, PINKY SWEAR!!
